I try not to frown. Ever.
And this is hard around you. Jealousy is a thing I find almost impossible to control. I envy your ability to be comfortable in a crowd. I envy your overall success in life. I envy how you can make a room light up just by being in it. Whereas I walk through, slouched and timid, and it darkens.
I try not to dislike anyone. But this is hard.
But I know you have problems, too. I hope the best, sincerely.